So today I got to get in my first real run since I had the car issues. I clocked in at just a little under 3 miles in total travel before my legs said 'NOPE' and it was time to pack up. I mention this solely because I've only been out of this habit for a week to a week and a half and already, I could feel an insane difference in the levels of stress I could put myself through.
The moral of this story, if you can avoid any breaks in your workout routines, do so. Getting back into is a bit painful.
I'm still most likely going to be heading out again in the morning as I don't work tonight, and then again over the weekend as I've got yet another weekend off (yay me?)
But yeah, I got a little lazy around the house during this down time. I had every intention to still work out some, even if I wasn't hitting the trails, but for whatever reason - apathy, lack of energy, the bit of backsliding I did on my diet (4 moscoto cupcakes in one night... it was worth it, don't worry,) - I just couldn't find the motivation to just get to it. I had no delusions of grandeur, it was going to be simple: Some jogging in place, jumping jacks, sit ups, push ups, etc... but I just never made the time. I regret that now. But on the bright side, I think it will be all the lesson I need to keep up on my shit going forward. Whether it's transportation, weather, or responsibility keeping me from the trails, I'll be making time to incorporate a decent routine in the home to hold me over and keep agile and weathered.
But that's it for now, I'll update soon with a link to the Recipes blog once I get some content readied up and uploaded. I have some decent low-carb, moderate calorie meals to help keep energy up.
Thursday, September 7, 2017
Truth and Other Lies
Okay, from the top.
Typing 3,000 words and then realizing that they don't say what you meant for them to...SMDH.
But, it's funny how relative the truth is to some people. I've avoided ex-shaming to this point, and will continue to do so, but get this visceral twinge to just let certain things go said unaddressed - so this post is me addressing such said things.
Things said: She claims that she's 'found' that her ex (me) has said things that aren't true to people about her. I'm not sure how she's found this as, first of all, I don't know people. I have my mother, my kids, and my aunt/uncle in the area...LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE. I don't talk to my neighbors, couldn't tell you there names if my life depended on it, and I even worked with one for a while. I keep quiet, keep to myself. In fact, I almost never leave the house but to go to work or shopping. Sure, I go out, bowling now and then, to a friends house an hour and a half away, but not with people from this community. I just live here. Literally. That's all I do. So, how, when, and to whom have I spoken all these untruths?
She mentions she asked me to stop making accusations about her child. Firstly, she barked the order that I need to stop. Secondly, I've made no such accusations. I stated facts. My son told me her kid was in my house while I was getting ready for work. I won't go into any further details of what did or didn't happen with that, but I told this ex that if I catch him on video, I'll press charges. Nothing else, just that.
No, I haven't accused her son, her, or any other miserable fuck in her life of anything for the sole reason of the fact I don't think about them. They're gone. The only time they cross my mind is when I hear from my son or my mother the shit they hear form the community.
My mother, for instance, has lost 'friends' at her job because my ex's son, the one I allegedly accuse of things, has told one of the people she works with that I am a child molester. I am not accusing her son of this, the gentleman from the neighborhood is accusing her son of this, but in the mean time, has convinced a few more of my mother's colleagues that I am a child molester. For this, MY MOTHER is shunned. Not me, not the person these bullshit lies are spread about, no, my fucking mother.
And this isn't the only man her son has made these accusations about me to. There are other members of this community he has spread these lies to. I haven't spoken to many, as I mentioned, I'm not the social butterfly, but the couple I have spoken to have been more receptive to common sense than the gentleman my mother has the misfortune of working with. No, these folks insisted they understood that the information was coming from a child and knew of the child well enough to take anything he said with a grain of salt. This was not intended as an insult, mind you, they just know that neither of them, her boy or mine, have been notorious for keeping a calm head and minding their business.
Then she gripes about a YouTube video my daughter posted. A YouTube video she (the ex) had no business watching. You want me out of your life, I'm out, but my kids come with me. You don't get to linger and fuck with them, bitch. Beside the point, that being that her gripe was that my daughter posted a video with the situation a bit wrong. She didn't, she had the situation spot on, and she did it in such the perfect manner. Unlike my ex's blog pointing fingers with absolution, my daughter went out of her way to note that this is all speculation and that she does not, nor can she possibly know the full truth of the situation. She makes it clear in her video that the information she is giving is all that she's been made privy to and that any speculation is just that, speculation. Hell, the only misrepresentation I saw in the whole video was her mentioning that my ex got into some trouble for waiting too long to do something... she got into trouble for not doing anything at all as it was her kid that started the drama shit-storm to ensue.
So, that's the truth of THIS situation... maybe a bit TL/DR, who knows... it's helped me though, and that's what this blog is about. Take it or leave it. But, if you want the true, in depth history of the psychosis that has been the last 18 years of my life, stick around my friends, that's the next chapter. We're coming in and taking this bitch from the very tippity-tip-top of this motherfucker's adulthood.
Typing 3,000 words and then realizing that they don't say what you meant for them to...SMDH.
But, it's funny how relative the truth is to some people. I've avoided ex-shaming to this point, and will continue to do so, but get this visceral twinge to just let certain things go said unaddressed - so this post is me addressing such said things.
Things said: She claims that she's 'found' that her ex (me) has said things that aren't true to people about her. I'm not sure how she's found this as, first of all, I don't know people. I have my mother, my kids, and my aunt/uncle in the area...LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE. I don't talk to my neighbors, couldn't tell you there names if my life depended on it, and I even worked with one for a while. I keep quiet, keep to myself. In fact, I almost never leave the house but to go to work or shopping. Sure, I go out, bowling now and then, to a friends house an hour and a half away, but not with people from this community. I just live here. Literally. That's all I do. So, how, when, and to whom have I spoken all these untruths?
She mentions she asked me to stop making accusations about her child. Firstly, she barked the order that I need to stop. Secondly, I've made no such accusations. I stated facts. My son told me her kid was in my house while I was getting ready for work. I won't go into any further details of what did or didn't happen with that, but I told this ex that if I catch him on video, I'll press charges. Nothing else, just that.
No, I haven't accused her son, her, or any other miserable fuck in her life of anything for the sole reason of the fact I don't think about them. They're gone. The only time they cross my mind is when I hear from my son or my mother the shit they hear form the community.
My mother, for instance, has lost 'friends' at her job because my ex's son, the one I allegedly accuse of things, has told one of the people she works with that I am a child molester. I am not accusing her son of this, the gentleman from the neighborhood is accusing her son of this, but in the mean time, has convinced a few more of my mother's colleagues that I am a child molester. For this, MY MOTHER is shunned. Not me, not the person these bullshit lies are spread about, no, my fucking mother.
And this isn't the only man her son has made these accusations about me to. There are other members of this community he has spread these lies to. I haven't spoken to many, as I mentioned, I'm not the social butterfly, but the couple I have spoken to have been more receptive to common sense than the gentleman my mother has the misfortune of working with. No, these folks insisted they understood that the information was coming from a child and knew of the child well enough to take anything he said with a grain of salt. This was not intended as an insult, mind you, they just know that neither of them, her boy or mine, have been notorious for keeping a calm head and minding their business.
Then she gripes about a YouTube video my daughter posted. A YouTube video she (the ex) had no business watching. You want me out of your life, I'm out, but my kids come with me. You don't get to linger and fuck with them, bitch. Beside the point, that being that her gripe was that my daughter posted a video with the situation a bit wrong. She didn't, she had the situation spot on, and she did it in such the perfect manner. Unlike my ex's blog pointing fingers with absolution, my daughter went out of her way to note that this is all speculation and that she does not, nor can she possibly know the full truth of the situation. She makes it clear in her video that the information she is giving is all that she's been made privy to and that any speculation is just that, speculation. Hell, the only misrepresentation I saw in the whole video was her mentioning that my ex got into some trouble for waiting too long to do something... she got into trouble for not doing anything at all as it was her kid that started the drama shit-storm to ensue.
So, that's the truth of THIS situation... maybe a bit TL/DR, who knows... it's helped me though, and that's what this blog is about. Take it or leave it. But, if you want the true, in depth history of the psychosis that has been the last 18 years of my life, stick around my friends, that's the next chapter. We're coming in and taking this bitch from the very tippity-tip-top of this motherfucker's adulthood.
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